Tall Shadows
All lyrics by Jeff Holmes (C) 2004 Jeff Holmespun Music (BMI)
Reproduced with permission
 

  Where the Miracles Fly Friday Afternoon  
  A Pillar of Stone World of Shadows  
  So Be It Hey Maria  
  Forgiven Fade to Gray  
  So Wild A Date With a Vampire  
  So Much Fire Swallowed by the Night  
    Renee  


Where The Miracles Fly
I'm watching the angst-ridden damned as they dance to industrial thunder all night
The girls and the boys share their works and their toys
in a place called "Where The Miracles Fly"
Where the miracles fly
The leathered and tethered all gather together in shadowy corners to grind
The sign at the bar says you're never too far out for where the miracles fly
A hazel-eyed child with a nail in her smile says I'm driving her our of her mind
She shudders and sighs an amphetamine sigh then ascends back up into the lights
Where the miracles fly
Where the miracles fly all night
Where the miracles fly
Where the miracles fly all night

They vow to die glamorous, violent and young but they're certain they never will die
They're just hungry for more in the methadone roar down at where the miracles fly
Where the miracles fly
They're kissing too deep and too hard and too long and they're holding each other too tight
They're chewing their lips and they're grinding their jaws; they're in love
Where the miracles fly
When the ecstasy thins into sweat on their skin and the chemical lightning subsides
They follow a "grin" with a swallow of gin and again they go off for a ride
Where the miracles fly
I want to live on a farm and raise a family
I want to bathe in a pail of morning rain
And wash away where the miracles fly
Where the miracles fly
Where the miracles fly all night
Where the miracles fly
Where the miracles fly all night

The chapped and the gloved promise undying love as they fondle each other goodnight
Out in the cold they look ghostly and old in the fog and the pre-morning night
A gallon of rum and a valium should quiet the hum in their ears and their eyes
They black out the day using blankets for shade
'Cause they're sick and they're certain they're  dying
If they could just pass out 'till sundown
It will all be alright
They could head back to the underground
Where the miracles fly
All night
I want to live on a far and raise a family
I want to bathe in a pail of morning rain
And wash away where the miracles fly
Where the miracles fly
Where the miracles fly all night
Where the miracles fly
Where the miracles fly all night



A Pillar of Stone
No, leave all of the lights on
I want to stare you in the eye
What kind of demons make you so hard to satisfy?
Hell, I dread every sundown
You're so evil when you're high
You want to close down the town and stay up making love all night
I've been a pillar of stone too long and I'm tired of being tempted and taunted
If that's the only way of turning you on I'm gonna die of what I thought I wanted
I tried to build a home for you, Delila
But sweat, muscle and bone alone is all you're looking for
I've been a pillar of stone
But I can't be that strong
I can't be that strong anymore

I can't keep up with the club life
And the party's wearing thin
I keep waiting for the mating to end and the love to begin
And what's the deal with the fast lane?
Does the danger turn you on?
Are you recalling the gaze of a stranger when we're all alone?
I've been a pillar of stone too long
aren't you tired of being painted and flaunted?
If that's the only way of turning you on, I was wrong all along, I don't want it
I tried to build a home for you, Delila
But sweat, muscle and bone alone is all you're looking for
I've been a pillar of stone
But I can't be that strong
I can't be that strong anymore

Ah, to Hell with the fast lane
Ah, to Hell with dying young
Ah, to Hell with the sunken-eyed punk you've been trying to become
Ah, to Hell with the club life
I don't care what turns you on
If you go back to the jungle tonight you can go alone
I've been a pillar of stone so long I've gone deaf from the wails of the haunted
If that's the only way of turning you on, from now on I don't want to be wanted
I tried to build a home for you, Delila
But sweat, muscle and bone alone is all you're looking for
I've been a pillar of stone
But I can't be that strong
I can't be that strong anymore



So Be It
Tonight's the night we planned to say our vows
We planned for candelight and evening gowns
We planned for wild romance
We planned for years
Now here I stand abandoned
No plan, no you, and no tears
We prowled the haunted caverns underground
We came alive each time the sun went down
We buzzed away the morning
On black coffee and dreams
We laughed and danced away just
One too many nights it seems now
No situation at all
No clever writing on the wall
One kiss goodbye and that was all
So be it

You're free to wonder what we could have been
If not for all the lies and all the sins
You're free to long for afternoons we dozed away
You're free to wonder why
A light inside you died when you strayed
You're free to share the blame
And call him by my name
No situation at all
No clever writing on the wall
One kiss goodbye and that was all
So be it

You're free to hunger for the life we led
Then wonder why you shiver in his bed
And I'm free to love whoever won't put me to sleep
You're free to marry money
And touch him thinking of me
No situation at all
No clever writing on the wall
One kiss goodbye and that was all
So be it



Forgiven
No need to lie
'Cause I'm not mad or broken hearted
I'm just surprised at how I feel so tell me more
And we'll pretend for the rest of the night
And when we wake up I'll make up my mind
For now, forgiven
For this strange double life you've been living
At least for tonight
It's all forgiven

I can see in your eyes
How you could hide a secret darkness
And I've known for some time of your desire for something more
So let's pretend for the rest of the night
And when we wake up I'll make up my mind
For now, forgiven
For this strange double life you've been living
At least for tonight
It's all forgiven

It's so surreal
Am I dreaming?
Secrets flood into my mind
I can't believe what I'm feeling
You're sins somehow set me on fire
No need to leave
'Cause I can be the one you long for
And if we try just for tonight I'll show you how
So let's pretend that we're strangers tonight
And when we wake up I'll make up my mind
For now, forgiven
For this strange double life you've been living
At least for tonight
It's all forgiven



So Wild
Mesmerized
I can make out your face through the veil and the candlelight
Paralyzed
I can make out your lips through the smoke and I'm hypnotized
By your eyes
Oh, I'm wild for you
Your eyes…
Oh, I'm wild for you
So wild
So wild

Thrill me
Just one breath on my breast, you can take me alive
Steal me
Just one touch of your claws at my throat and I'm hypnotized
By your eyes
Oh, I'm wild for you
I tremble and writhe at the touch of your fingers on fire for you
So wild
So wild

Tease me
Keep your kisses inches from my reach and breathe on me
Seize me
Whisper your secrets, whisper your forbidden dreams
And your eyes…
Oh, I'm wild for you
I tremble and writhe at the touch of your fingers on fire for you
So wild
So wild
So wild
So wild



So Much Fire
I ain't nothing by ribs, knees, and elbows
I'm way too young to be dry, brittle, and cold
I've been wondering how I let her hurl me into madness
I've been wondering how she bled the child in me away
I've been hammering boards over the windows
I've been nailing the doors to the frames
I've been wondering how I let her fill my heart with lightning
I've been wondering how she led a long haired boy astray
No, I've fought to the man for the last time
And I don't understand how a girl so much like rain can breathe so much fire

I've been tapping the walls listening for angels
I've been eyeing the halls spying for ghosts
And in a shadowy dream, I can see her barefoot on the glider
I try to beg her for peace, but I'm just too vague and far away
No, I've fought to the man for the last time
And I don't understand how a girl so much like rain can breathe so much fire

And in a shadowy dream, I see her barefoot on the glider
I try to beg her for peace, but I'm just too vague and far away
No, I've fought to the man for the last time
And I don't understand how a girl so much like rain can breathe so much fire
She breathed so much fire
How could she see through the flames?
How could she see through the flames?




Friday Afternoon
It's raining
Hands on the wall don't move
I'm getting crazy now
The doorbell's broken and I've thrown the telephone across the room
The TV's on
But I keep the volume down
The blinds are drawn
I like it dark in case the sun comes out
It's Friday afternoon
If I'm giving up too soon, don't tell me
It's Friday afternoon and I'm waiting
If I'm giving up too soon, don't say it
You'll have your Saturday blues
What do you want from me anyway?
I've done nothing but lose
Everything I ever wanted always slipped away

Five o'clock
Seems like hours
Nobody knocks
Maybe the clock has stopped; nobody bothered sending flowers
It's Friday afternoon
If I'm giving up too soon, don't tell me
It's Friday afternoon and I'm waiting
If I'm giving up too soon, don't say it
You'll have your Saturday blues
What do you want from me anyway?
I've done nothing but lose
Everything I ever wanted always slipped away

It's raining
Hands on the wall don't move
I'm getting crazy now
The doorbell's broken and I've thrown the telephone across the room
It's getting late
There's a leaky tap somewhere
I'm wide awake and I'm sick of waiting
With a busted telephone just lying there
It's Friday afternoon and I'm waiting
If I'm giving up too soon, don't say it
You'll have your Saturday blues
What do you want from me anyway?
I've done nothing but lose
Everything I ever wanted always slipped away
(Go home)
(Go home)
It's Friday afternoon and I'm waiting.  If I'm giving up too soon, don't say it
You'll have your Saturday blues
What do you want from me anyway?
I've done nothing but lose
Everything I ever wanted always slipped away



World of Shadows
Don't say a word
Words won't change things
'Cause if I thought it was right, you could stay every night from now on
I don't need a friend
And you ain't gonna save me
You can romanticize and fantasize at night but some things you can't own
You're so damn young
Thrills come so easy
When you've been kicked around the underground like I have you might turn to stone
Don't swallow the lies
The hallow glamour
'Cause if you think it's all handshakes and earthquakes, girl you got it wrong
Don't you fear the darkness?
Let your dreams be dreams
You don't need what you want
I don't know how to make you go home
How do I turn off what I never meant to turn on?
Go spend all your time out in the sunshine
Girl, you don't belong here in my world of shadows. 

Don't get me wrong
I know how love feels
And if I couldn't care I wouldn't dare pretend that it's time to move on
You might be strong
But you're never strong enough
See, I was born with the clean heart of a child but now look how I've grown
Don't you fear the darkness?
Let your dreams be dreams
You don't need what you want
I don't know how to make you go home
How do I turn off what I never meant to turn on?
Go spend all your time out in the sunshine
Girl, you don't belong here in my world of shadows



Hey Maria
Welcome back to the trauma
I see you're still getting high. All that healing and karma
Ain't doing you no good tonight
You're still too sexy to marry
And far too evil to love
With all that cocaine you carry
You shouldn't miss me so much
No, I can't let you stay here tonight
I've got a big day tomorrow
Hey Maria, are you blind?
Don't you see how the walking dead ignite?
For no reason at all
No reason at all

We were legends on Forest
We danced in cages till dawn
But all your heeled and your harnessed
Did me no good at all
I would wait by my window and pray
You'd still be here tomorrow
Hey Maria, are you blind?
Don't you see how the walking dead ignite?
For no reason at all
No reason at all

Go on, close down The Modern
This is your hour to shine
Before the faux couture fodder
Stagger home to get fried
Before the drag queens start jonesing again
-all out of rush till tomorrow
Hey Maria, I'm too grown up to play
But what I still see in you won't fade

Right about now all the speed freaks are crashing
The X virgins are convinced that they're bi
And all the cokeheads are nervous
They check their pulse to be sure they're alive
'Ree, I can't let you stay here tonight
Or ten thousand tomorrows
Hey Maria, are you blind?
Don't you see how the walking dead ignite?
For no reason at all
No reason at all
Hey Maria, I'm too grown up to play
But what I still see in you won't fade




Fade To Gray
I can't trade another day in the shade for a night on the town
All this whiskey and risky behavior is wearing me down
(What are you dreaming of?)
Hell, a shack in the woods would be more than enough
(What are your dreaming of?)
This ain't no way to live or to try to find love
(Slow down)
I want to live where the sunlight lights
(Slow down)
Feather-light on my face
(Slow down)
I want to leave all this neon and vice
Before the fire inside me dies or finally fades to gray 

I had a car – it's still parked in the yard – I can't give it away
But I can walk to the bar and the market ain't far if I can bear the light of day
(What are you dreaming of?)
Hell, a dollar to spare would be more than enough
(What are you dreaming of?)
This ain't no way to live or to try to find love
(Slow down)
I want to live where the sunlight lights
(Slow down)
Feather-light on my face
(Slow down)
I want to leave all this neon and vice
Before the fire inside me dies or finally fades to gray

Oh no, don't let it fade to gray
Oh no, don't let it fade to gray
Oh no, don't let it fade to gray
Oh no, don't let it fade to gray

Girls will maul you and promise to call you then run away
Hell, I blew all my bread on some redhead, it turned out that she was a he anyway
(What are you dreaming of?)
Hell, a red-blooded girl would be more than enough
(What are you dreaming of?)
This ain't no way to live or to try to find love
(Slow down)
I want to live where the sunlight lights
(Slow down)
Feather-light on my face
(Slow down)
I want to leave all this neon and vice
Before the fire inside me dies or finally fades to gray

(Well, what are you dreaming of?)
I've been tainted and tattered and tarnished enough
(What are you dreaming of?)
This ain't no way to live or to try to find love
(Slow down)
I want to live where the sunlight lights
(Slow down)
Feather-light on my face
(Slow down)
I want to leave all this neon and vice
Before the fire inside me dies or finally fades to gray




A Date With A Vampire
Now the clouds are towering over Rainbridge Station
Again today the clouds will yield no rain
She lights her last and turns her eyes away from the window
And wonders is there no end to the pain
She bathes and dries by candlelight and stares into the mirror
She brushes out her hair until it shines
She slides into her gown with just the breeze beneath to cool her
She lines her lips and eyes and sips her wine
"Lie down don't cry
Just wipe those teardrops from your eyes
Since it's too late to wonder why…"

She hears the hinges creaking on the front door below her
She hears the tap of boot heels on the stairs
She turns away to watch the curtains shudder when he enters
He'll breathe upon her throat and she won't care
"Lie down don't cry
Just wipe those teardrops from your eyes
Since it's too late to wonder why…"
"I'll cower here beneath the sky"
"Lie down don't cry
Just wipe those teardrops from your eyes
Since it's too late to wonder why…"
"I'll cower here beneath the sky"




Swallowed By The Night
She seems so tangled and wild
Me? Am I too wide-eyed and mild?
She might not think so
I've been around you know
She sets the smoke overhead all aglow with the lights in her eyes
She parts the underground sea
And weaves through the elbows and knees
She might be solo
I'm too shy to ever know
Please, I can't breathe with her inches away from me ordering wine
And she might be lazy
She might be the kind to sleep in a coffin all day
But if I'm so crazy
How come she makes tomorrow seem so far away?
Wake me up
I think I'm falling falling falling
I give up
I think I'm falling falling falling
If I'm not crawling home by morning
I was swallowed by the night
Swallowed by the night

She's damp from dancing alone
Please, have I been down here too long?
She might be lonely
She might just need room to breathe
She faintly smells of patchouli and leather and sweat and I'm losing my mind
And she might be lazy
She might be the kind to sleep in a coffin all day
But if I'm so crazy
How come she makes tomorrow seem so far away?
Wake me up
I think I'm falling falling falling
I give up
I think I'm falling falling falling
If I'm not crawling home by morning
I was swallowed by the night
Swallowed by the night
Wake me up
I think I'm falling falling falling
I give up
I think I'm falling falling falling
If I'm not crawling home by morning
I was swallowed by the night
Swallowed by the night




Renee
Sweet Renee
If I lived a little cleaner someday
Got a break and maybe made a little money
Then would you stay?
Or is there nothing left of me to save?
Please Renee
If I gave up all the poison today
If I gave up all the bars and the parties
What would you say?
Is it too late for me to change my old ways?
Speak up and tell me that I'm not dreaming
Renee, please say that I'm not losing my mind
Because I need you to believe in me this time

Sweet Renee
I think a lot about forever these days
What happened to the wild boy that won you?
I'm far from gray
But I can feel my body aging these days
Please Renee
God, I used to be your hero those days
I made your heart race every time I held you
Is it so strange
To want to fight the way things always change?
Speak up and tell me that I'm not dreaming
Renee, please say that I'm not losing my mind
Because I need you to believe in me this time

Sweet Renee
Do you think I'm going to die young someday?
Do you really think it's too late to save me?
I'm so afraid
Will I just feel my body go away
Speak up and tell me that I'm not dreaming
Renee, please say that I'm not losing my mind
Because I need you to believe in me this time
Speak up and tell me that I'm not dreaming
Renee, please say that I'm not losing my mind
Because I need you to believe in me this time
Because I need you to believe in me
Renee believe in me
I need you to believe in me this time